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Pre-Littleton Entries
September
04, 2002: I Decided to open
this section up to the public and begin journal entries about my trip.
My original plan was to go to Littleton in November 2002. I decided
to go the end of this month for several reasons. One I'm antsy to
travel and check out Littleton. Two, I think the weather will be a
little better and hopefully not so cold. In November I'd end up
driving in snow, and me being a Texan, I've never in my life driven
in snow and with my luck I'd end up running my truck into a poll or
something. haha! It will also work out better because I have
college classes off during the time I am going, so I won't miss any
school. I am also going to see a concert after my two days of
visiting Littleton on Monday Sept. 30th, I will be seeing Alice
Cooper in concert in Denver Co.
Ok, I know right now your probably
thinking "ALICE COOPER?!?! is this guy for real? no way.. Alice
Cooper shouldn't be associated with a Christian" However, I find
that Alice and his testimony is very inspiring.
Testimony? Now your probably thinking "well to have a testimony
you need to be a Christian." That's exactly what Alice Cooper
is. He was saved about 10 years ago. Any of you who know any
of his history, he was a heavy alcoholic. All though his life he'd
drink, about a bottle of whiskey a day. Being the son of a Baptist
preacher, he knew about God and remembered the teachings of his youth.
He began to attend church with his wife Sheryl and slowly felt God's pull
on his heart. He surrendered His life to the Lord in the early 90s.
He says that it was GOD who delivered him from his alcoholism.
In HM Magazine we hear him talk about his Christianity and new found
faith.
"I was
the prodigal son. I left the house, achieved fame and fortune, and found
out that that was not what I wanted," "Now I read the Bible every
day, I pray every day. That’s really what I’m about." "I was
one thing at one time, and I’m something new now. I’m a new creature
now. Don’t judge Alice by what he used to be. Praise God for what I am
now."
The change can be seen in his music and
writing and in his life. He is the founder of the
Solid Rock Foundation, a Christian based organization to help
inner-city teens in the Phoenix Arizona area. He also openly speaks
of his faith now, and talks to some of these darker heavy metal bands,
warning them that the devil is real and that there is consequences for
their actions and trying to show them Christ and His love for them.
Anyways, I don't mean to lift him up in
anyway, or to stray from the purpose of this website, (which is Rachel) but I wanted to explain and briefly give you all this guy's story
and in doing so hopefully give inspiration to others. I think he has
a awesome testimony.
I think it is awesome the way God works. His love can break though
the coldest of hearts. Our God is all powerful and is Awesome. What
is in possible with us, IS POSSIBLE with God. So that is
Alice's story in a nut shell. I have always been a rock n roller,
and have jammed to Alice since I was 13 and it was really a inspiration to
find out he is now a child of God.
So anyways, that is pretty much my trip
and purpose in a nut shell. I look forward to visiting the town of
Littleton. To see the school Rachel went to and walk in the places she
walked. To visit where she worked, and where she worshiped.
And also to visit the state of Colorado. I've heard a lot of nice
things about it, that it's a very beautiful state. Oh yes, I mustn't
forget I also wanted to visit Compassion International. For those of
you who do not know, this is a international child sponsor thing.
I really love this ministry and I my self sponsor an beautiful young girl
from Brazil, named
Kassia. You can find out more on them at
their website. They are based in Colorado Springs and have tours
of their headquarters.
Well I guess that's it for my first entry
of this journal. I hope you all have a wonderful week, and till next
time. God bless you all!
September 5, 2002: As each day grows closer I am more excited. I
love to travel and this gives me such a wonderful opportunity to see other
parts of this beautiful country we live in. I hope I didn't scare
you all off because I'm a Alice Cooper fan. Anyways, planning has
begun for this trip. Hotel reservations are set and made. In
the next few weeks I will be in the process of getting my truck checked,
and ready for the 1200 mile trip to Littleton. I've done
a lot of traveling with my ole Chevy pickup but never done a road trip
this long. So again be praying that it works right and gets me back
and forth safely. Anyways, got class in the morning, till next
entry. God bless you all.
September 14, 2002:
I pray everyone is doing well and that we all got though 9/11. I
had a memorial service at my church, it was pretty cool. Only
two more weeks till my trip to Littleton. Next week I take my
truck in and get it checked. I am also happy because I will be
not only visiting Littleton, but visiting my brother in Oklahoma.
His church is having a revival that week, so it'll be cool.
This is the church that I baptized in. Plus it's always good to
see family. I am planning on getting a "Rachel's
Challenge" shirt for my nieces too. You all may have noticed
the growth of my site from small tribute page to a larger site.
I have been praying about this and I wanted to do my part in sharing
the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ, though Rachel's legacy. I
decided to make a full blown site to do this and also as a site in
dedication and honor of Rachel. God has used her to touch so
many life's, and continues. And this new site and domain, is my
way of saying thank you Rachel for giving to the Lord. Just like
that song says, I will rejoice the day that I can see her face to face
and say thank you for giving to the Lord. My hearts
desire is that people will be blessed though these pages and inspired.
May God bless you all. Till next entry.
September 20, 2002:
Praise be to God, it's a beautiful day out today. Finally there
is relief from this ridicules heat here in south Texas.
First taste of winter came though early this morning as a cold front
pushed though my area. It's really beautiful out. I hope
this weather holds out, because at this time next week, I will be
several hours into my trip. I have been debating, when to
leave. Either Thursday or Friday. I'm horrible like that,
I can never make my mind up on things. When I make plans for a
trip I change them a lot. Oh well, that's just me. Ya all
be praying for my truck. It never fails, every freken time I do
a road trip, something right before the trip, will screw up. It
can be running perfectly fine for months, and then right before a
major road trip. bam. Well hopefully not this time, it's
been running good, and I'm getting the final checks done on it next
week. So anyways, I will continue post here as I make my trip,
during my trip and after, like I said toward the beginning of this
page. Praise God, for laptops. Till next entry. God
bless and please ya all be praying for this trip, I really feel that
God is going to move in my heart, ether in Littleton or at the revival
in my brother's church.
September 22, 2002:
Well there always seems to be something coming up. My trip may
be canceled, I am
keeping close tabs on hurricane Isidore. If we get a
direct hit, then I'll have to cancel, in order to help board up our
house, and batten everything down and prepare for this monster.
Also my planed time to leave would be Thursday, and that's right when
the storm hits, if it does in fact hit, so driving in 100 Knot winds
could prove to be interesting. Anyways, I want to send out a very
special thanks to Beth Nimmo, Michael Tamburello, and every one at
Rachel Joy Scott Ministries, for the kindness they've showed me, and
for providing a link from their site to mine. It is very much
appreciated, and I am humbled by this. Thank you! Well
I'll keep you all updated on this storm. And be praying for us
and the people that live in this area of the country. Where ever
this storm is going to hit, it's going to cause a lot of destruction.
Till next entry.
September 23, 2002: Still continuing to keep an eye on Mr.
Isidore. But my plans have been finalized. I leave
Thursday (sept 26) and arrive in Littleton late, 3 or 4 in the morning on
Friday. Then have a nice long weekend, visiting and exploring
Littleton and Denver. I'm really looking forward to it, I think
this will be a great blessing. Peace.
September 24, 2002: Only one more
day left before my trip. Hurricane Isidore isn't a threat
anymore. I am a bit antsy, I feel like leaving now.
I'm kind of nervous, I never made this big of a road trip before, plus
being able to meet Rachel's mom and her webmaster and friend Val, also
gets me a little nervous. Nervous not in a bad way but a good
way. I'm really a shy person and when I meet someone new it's
always exciting. My trip will actually consist of two
parts. After I return from Littleton, I will stop off in Port
Aransas Texas and sail on the
M/V
Texas Treasure, a few more times before the ship leaves to
Florida. For those of you who know me, this ship has been a very
special place for me, I've known people on there for 4 years, and have
been a passenger on board her for just as long. I have made some
long lasting friendship's though the ship and now, the company is
doing something different for the winter. During the winter
season the ship will go to Florida to sail, and will stay there till
march, then will return to Port Aransas for the vacation season.
So all these people I've known, will be gone for 5 months, and saying
good bye to them is going to be hard. So anyways, that will be
the second part of the trip. I canceled my original plans of
going to Oklahoma, instead I will go straight to Port Aransas on
Tuesday, and enjoy relaxing to the warm, sunny gulf coast weather at
sea. Anyways, keep praying for this trip, I thank you and till
next entry, God bless.
September 25, 2002:
Tomorrow's the Day. All day on the road, and I will be in
Littleton, Colorado sometime early Friday morning. 20
hours baby, non stop, with the exception of re-fueling and eating.
I've never pulled something like this off, and this may be my last
time, as far as driving 1200 miles in one pop. Ha Ha
 We will see.
Right now I'm taking a break from packing and finalizing things for
tomorrow. I'm so antsy. I have considered even leaving
today and staying in San Antonio, at least that way I could shorten my
trip by 15 hours, instead of 20. Anyways, guess that's it.
My next entry will be from the road. OH yea, I opened the
photo album
today. It's not much, but it's ready to add pictures. I was
testing my camera out and popped a few pictures around the house.
Talk to you tomorrow, in Littleton.
Entries While in Littleton,
Colorado
September 26, 2002: Wow I'm
here in Littleton, Colorado. 20 hour drive, non stop, wow, very
tired.
Gonna pass out.
Will write more tomorrow. God bless!
September 27, 2002: Today has
been a very enjoyable day. I started my day out by visiting
Rachel's Grave. I didn't know how I'd react, if I'd cry, or if
I'd just stand there and stare at her grave. I can not begin to
explain how I felt, as soon as I turned into the cemetery, my heart
was over come with sorrow, and as I approached the 13 crosses, my
heart broke. I looked at all the crosses and when I came to
Rachel's, I wept. As I read the
 writings
on the cross from Rachel's family and friends, I cried. I went
to where she is buried, knelt down, and the tears flowed freely.
I can not begin to explain the sorrow I felt. I began to talk to
Rachel though my tears. I told her how much she meant to me, I
thanked her for being such a inspiration, and I just talked to her.
Then as knelt at her grave, I began to pray. I asked God for
strength, to give me that deeper walk with him, to just know him
totally and completely, with no doubts, no hesitations when it comes
to Him. I praised Him and I thanked Him for His grace, for
saving Rachel and working mightily though her as He has done though
her death. As I closed my prayer, a soft wind came up, almost as
in acknolgement to me saying yes my child I heard your prayers.
The sadness was instantly replaced by peace, and joy. Knowing
that Rachel is now resting in the love and shelter of our Lord Jesus
Christ. I left her with a
letter, in a wooden frame and something very special to me, my
necklace and cross, anchor, ship's wheel pendent. (Sailor's cross)
I've had this since I was in my early teens. It was given to me
after my first trip out to sea by my parents. It held alot of
memories. I gave this in honor of her and as a token of my
thanks to her. You can read what I wrote her,
HERE. I plan on visiting her grave a few more times before I
leave on Monday. After I visited her grave, I went and had lunch
at the subway she worked at. It was weird going in there.
I saw a young girl, probably a high school or college freshmen, brown
hair, and I instantly was reminded of Rachel. As she asked me
"may I have your order" like 3 times I broke out of my daze and gave
my order. I had a meatball sandwich, and enjoyed my lunch.
Afterwards, I drove by Columbine High School and then to the park
there. I drove around there. The school was buzzing with
life. Lots of students were out and about in the park. I
plan on getting a few pictures of the school as well, I didn't today
because school was in session and I didn't want to look like your
typical tourist taking pictures of everything. I returned back
to my hotel and now I am working on the website, wile I wait for
Michael from Racheljoyscott.com to come over and pick me up. We
are going to go out and hang out. Speaking of pictures, I took
some of her grave and around Littleton. I will post those later
tonight or Saturday. I guess that's it. Oh yeah, in
closing, please pray for my return trip, my truck started making funny
noises, and now I'm kinda worried, I took it to the Chevy
dealer, and they said it was just a lose exhaust fitting and that it
should be ok. Hopefully they are right!! My battery in my
laptop is fixing to die. So till tomorrow, God bless.
September 28, 2002: It is 4 am,
Sunday the 29th, I am just now getting in and settled again from a
long but wonderfully blessed Saturday. I am tired but BLESSED
beyond words. I will
post full details on what happened on Sat, in my next entry. Let
me tell you it was powerful. I will leave you with a picture of
the Rachel Joy Scott Ministry Team. To Rachel's mother, I can
not put into words, how much it meant to me to meet you. You are
an incredibly awesome woman, I admire you and am constantly praying
for you. I am glad to now be officially part of Rachel Joy Scott
Ministries. I am humbled by this and totally on fire about all
of this. I give my all to God and will do everything I can to
continue to help spread Rachel's story for the glory of Jesus Christ.
Till Sunday. God bless. ps: Rachel's mom is the lady to
my right. I will go into more details as to who everyone else
is. For now I just wanted to share this picture with the world.
It is so dear to my heart.
September 30, 2002:
Father God, I thank you so much for this time
I had to be able to visit Littleton, and to meet so many wonderful people.
Lord you've touched my heart to the core with Rachel's story. I
praise you and thank you God, for the opportunity to serve you though
helping out Rachel Joy Scott ministries. Lord, I praise you and
give you all the glory. I love you and follow you. I give
you my all. Please help me to serve you the best I can in
getting Rachel's story out, and in turn bring people to Your love and
salvation. I thank you God, for Michael, Nina, Val, Charlotte,
Beth, Larry, and everyone else involved with Rachel's ministry. Just
like her dad said, her death will not be in vain! The young
people of this country will see to it, and I will do my part to see to
it also. Bless them all, and keep them safe in you.
I thank you Lord for getting me to Oklahoma safely, and I ask you to
work in my heart at the revival this week. Bless pastor David
and his wife Jessica. I love them both so dearly. I thank you for all things, in Jesus Name.
Amen!
Wow, where do I begin. My trip to
Littleton is over, and I am now in Oklahoma visiting with my brother
and family. The drive was good, I made a few mess ups coming
down here, but God is good, it all worked out. Saturday and
Sunday were awesome. God continued to move in my heart. I don't
think I told you all about my visit with Michael on Friday night.
So I'll begin there. It was awesome. I met Michael and Val for
the first time. Both of them are such awesome people. I
love Michael's sense of humor and Val is just a sweet heart. Val
and I had been talking via email for a while. She was such an
incredible help in getting info for me in planing this trip. I
thank you so much Val. She is a beautiful girl, on the inside
and out, and totally blessed by God. It was such a honor meeting
them. We had dinner at HOPPs. We talked and visited.
Val had to leave early. Michael told me about how he got
involved with Rachel Joy Scott ministries and we talked for some time
after dinner. It was amazing, toward the end, we began to talk
with the waitress and we ended up telling her about Rachel.
Michael, gave her racheljoyscott.com for more information. To me
that just blessed me so much, and showed me how awesome God is.
Because, I know that God will use Rachel's story to touch this young
girls life.
After dinner, we went to his house and
he showed me something very special. I held in my hands,
Rachel's actual journals. I can not even begin to express what I
felt as he handed me her red velvet journal. I thought to my
self, I am not worthy to read this. As I read though the
journals, my heart was beating in my chest. Her actual hands had
touched these, and poured out her heart and soul though words on these
pages. I was so incredibly touched by this. After reading
the journals, it's as if I had taken a little of Rachel with me.
I know there will always be a little part of Rachel living in side my
heart because of this. I want to thank Michael again for allowing me
to see these journals. This was the most special part of my
trip. Words can't express how thankful I am to Michael for this.
God bless you brother.
The next day, Saturday, I was up
bright and early and went to visit Rachel's grave. I went and
talked with Rachel and prayed there. From there I went back to
my hotel and called Michael. We ended up getting together and
hanging out. From his place we went and picked up Charlotte.
She is like me, she was incredibly touched by Rachel's story.
She moved from Canada to Colorado and currently attends college at
Colorado Christian University.
She is studying to be come a youth minister and is the most sweetest
girl you can ever meet. She has that same glow that Rachel had.
You look at her and you see God's love shining though her. She
is truly amazing, and it was such a honor to meet her.
From her dorm we went and visited Cassie
Bernall grave. From there we hung out, went up
to one of the mountains which was cool. We hung out for the rest
of the day. I got to meet Nina, Michael's daughter.
She is such a sweetheart. It was him and her who put together
Lullaby for Columbine. An awesome CD compilation dedicated to
Columbine. We watched videos of one of Nina's birthday parties.
Craig Scott was in the video, and during these videos, I saw Rachel in
Craig. He has Rachel's spirit for life. That evening I met Rachel's mom and step dad.
Joining us also was Val,
Charlotte, Michael, and Nina. I was so nervous
in meeting Beth, Rachel's mom. We walked into the restrant and
when I saw her, I saw Rachel in her, I wanted to breakdown and cry.
I was totally going to lose it, but I fought back the tears. As
we waited for our table, she asked me how I heard about Rachel.
I told her my story. As I told her my story, I just lost it,
tears began to flow down my face. I felt so honored
to meet her. This amazing woman that brought Rachel into this
world. There were simply no words to describe how I felt.
I was very shy around her, and didn't say much to her after, but I was
so happy. We ate dinner, and after dinner we all took a
picture together. The picture above, is as follows from left to
right. Charlotte, Val, Yours truly, Beth and Nina. Back row,
Michael and Larry.
It was an unforgettable evening. I
thank Beth so much for allowing me to meet her. I can not
express with words, how much it meant to me. She is constantly
in my prayers. I was also welcomed aboard, Rachel Joy Scott
Ministries during dinner, which is an incredible blessing. I
will be helping out on the official website, monitoring the guestbook
and doing other stuff. I am so completely humbled by this, I am
really not worthy of this. But I thank God for this opportunity
to be able to serve Him though spreading Rachel's story. It's
beyond words. I thank Beth and Michael for giving me this
opportunity as well.
Later that night we visited Rachel's
grave. Me, Michael and Charlotte. It was another
highlights of my trip. We just hung out, prayed, remembered,
cried, and just held each other up as Christian brother's and sisters.
Saturday was an incredible day and if
that was not enough, as I checked my email that night, I get a email
from a 14 year old girl, who told me that she had visited my site, and
became a Christian that night. I cried and thanked God for this.
Sunday was another awesome day. I
was up early again, and went and visited Rachel's
 grave. I
talked to Rachel, I prayed to God and just enjoyed the beautiful
Colorado weather. After that I went to Michael's house and we
went to church. We went to Trinity Christian Center, one of the
church's Rachel used to go to. It was a awesome service.
My heart leapt with in me as we sang praises to our Lord and Savior,
Jesus Christ.
When the services finished, we hung out
for a bit. Michael introduced me to Larry Scott, Darrell's
brother. It was an incredible honor to meet him. I told
him my story and how Rachel had touched my life with her legacy.
He has a daughter, Sarah Scott, who wrote a poem for her cousin
called
"Angel of
Mine" She read this at Rachel's funeral. It is
also featured in the poem section of this site.
After church, me, Michael and Charlotte went to
Columbine High School. We looked around and they showed me the
school. My heart ached as I walked around, with them where
Rachel died. I was crying so much on the inside. I took
several pictures, which you can view in the photo section.
After that we went to Rachel's place to eat. (Subway where she worked)
We had a really yummy lunch, and then went up to this little place in
the mountains, called Georgetown. It was an awesome little town.
I am so fascinated by the mountains, I really enjoyed walking around
and looking around and seeing the beautiful land. But it was COLD. This ole Texas boy aint used to this cold weather.
From there, we went back to Michael's
place and watched some videos of Rachel. This was probably the
most difficult time of my trip. I saw one video, of her at
Christmas time. She
was young, probably 12 or so. She was so full of life, and such
a beautiful girl. There was one scene where she is opening a
Christmas present, and she turns around to her mom with a huge smile,
and says "LOOK MAMA." I was crying so hard in the inside.
She was an angel! Her gentle voice, her glowing smile,
everything about her. Then we saw another video. This video
brought this whole Columbine tragedy into perspective. Images of
blood, and gore in the library. Destruction. Seeing
Rachel's lifeless body. I was so completly torn apart. From there
we watched a interview with Craig Scott, Rachel's brother.
It was right after the shootings like the next day. Both me and
Charlotte cried hard as we watched this. I truly admire Craig
Scott. He is an incredible inspiration to me. Just as much
so as Rachel is. Craig if you ever read this, please know that I
pray for you always, you and your family. I see so much of
Rachel in him. I can't wait for the day when I can shake his
hand. You are an awesome person Craig.
On my way back to my hotel I stopped at
Rachel's grave, and I cried and I cried and I cried.
Seeing these videos, brought everything into perspective for me.
I have never cried so much in my life. I laid down next to the
grave in the cool grass, and the sobs that came from with in me shook
the core of my soul. It was as if I lost my own family member.
My heart was so broken, I just lay there until the tears subsided, and
then another wave of them would come. I finally got up, knelt by
her grave, and started to pray to God. I asked Him to use me in
this ministry, and to bless me. I told him take away all doubts, be
real in my life, bring me into a deeper relationship with Him. I
told him that I was His, and my life is in His hands, that I would die
for Him. I told Him I am available to serve Him. I just
continued to pray and as I did, I felt His loving holy spirit fill me
and comfort me. Our God is an awesome God and he hears the cry
of his people. Jesus him self said "blessed are those who morn for
they will be comforted." I finished my prayer and began to
talked to Rachel. I made a promise to her that night, that I
would continue her chain reaction, and be kind to people and love
people. I also made a promise to her that I would tell as
many people about her as I could. Afterwards, I went back to the
hotel, packed and went to sleep. I was up early the next day,
and stopped by Rachel's grave one final time. I said goodbye,
cried a little, and asked Rachel to watch over me.
10 hours later, I'm sitting here in
Oklahoma writing this journal entry. I can't begin to put
everything into words what an incredible trip this was. God worked in my heart, though this trip, I am now in a
even deeper relationship with God. God used this stuff to break
my heart, only in order for Him to re mold it into a work for His
glory. God has been teaching me brokenness, and humbleness
though this trip. He has taught me that if I want to serve Him I have
to put my complete trust in Him, and not have any doubts.
The trip is over, but this will be
something I will cherish till my dying day. I thank Michael,
Nina, Charlotte, Val, Beth, Larry for making this trip so special.
It is also such a honor to be a part of Rachel Joy Scott Ministries. I
thank you everyone in this ministry for believing in me. I love
you guys so much, and I thank God for blessing me with your
friendship. I will not let you down, that is a promise!
And finally to Rachel, my role
model, inspiration, and friend, rest in the peace of our savior Jesus
Christ, for one day, the trumpet will sound and we all shall awake,
and see JESUS coming down from the clouds, and He will re new this
earth and He will reign supreme, and there will be no more hurt, no
more suffering, no more hate, and violence, no more tears, no more
hunger, no more death. The lion will lay down with the lamb and
there will be peace forever. We will all praise Him and live in
His shining Glory. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY!!! I love
you always, sweet Rachel. See you in heaven someday!!
On the
Road/Return Trip Home
Entries
October 3, 2002: I am in Wilson
Oklahoma now. I have been here for the past few days. My
brother's church had a revival and it was pretty awesome. I am
now debating what to do, if I want to stay here a few days more (I was
suppose to leave to the ship today) or if I want to stay the rest of
the week. So I'm kind of torn about that. Anyways, the
revile went great. God spoke to my heart and re confirmed to me
that I will in deed be a part of Rachel Joy Scott Ministries.
It's funny how God works. We think he's going to do it one way
and He does it a totally different way. I was thinking I'd have this
huge emotional experience. The other night I dreamed of my
niece, she had hugged me and was giving me something but I couldn't
make out what it was. On the way to church she asked me to hold
her journal, and I went though it, and saw hauntingly familiar images,
that reminded me of Rachel. Crosses, flowers, stories she wrote.
During church she pulled out a piece of her journal and gave it to me.
It was a beautifully drawn cross, full of color, that said to uncle
mike from Debra. When I saw that, I knew God was confirming to
me that He wants me to be involved with Rachel's ministry. I
just about cried I was so touched so much. The dream represented
Rachel, her innocence, her gentleness, the way she cared. It was
almost as if Rachel was giving me a hug in that dream though my niece.
Me and my niece are very close, I love her to death, I would die for
her. The cross from Debra's journal represented Rachel's cross
and God is telling me to continue to carry her cross to the world,
which of course is her story and legacy. Telling people about
Rachel and how she loved God and in turn showing people how much God
loves them. I hope you all don't think I'm totally nuts, but I
know this is what God is telling me. I feel it in my heart and
soul.
I am God's, my heart and soul, and life
are His. I have given Him my all, so it's His will be done,
weather it be working on getting Rachel's story out, or working
somewhere in Africa. THY WILL BE DONE FATHER!!
To Debra, I just want you to know how
much I love you. You are the apple of my eye, you mean the world
to me, I love you so incredibly much. God bless you my sweet
angel, and may God always be a part of your life. Remember He is
there and He loves you more then anything.
Till next entry.
October 6, 2002: I am back
home once again. It's been a incredibly long day, I am so tired.
Almost as tired as I was coming into Colorado. Anyways, God is
good, He has blessed me beyond words though my trip. I will write more
after getting a few hours of shut eye. God bless..... And 7
hour later, I am still tired, but at least I can function now.
The return trip was awesome. I
enjoyed my stay in Oklahoma. It is always awesome visiting
family. I thank God for such a awesome family I have. The
revival went great. Pastor David and his wife Jessica are
awesome people. I strongly recommended The River at Wilson, if
you all are ever in the Ardmore/Wilson Oklahoma area. It is a
very anointed church. I sailed on the Texas Treasure one final
time last night. It was another emotional time in my life, but I
know God is in control. I said good bye to the people I knew and
then drove back home and got in around 4 AM.
The entire trip was GOD. I learned
several things though this trip. First I learned to truly trust
in God and give Him everything. Secondly I have learned
brokenness. The Lord has taken my heart and broken it, though
the columbine tragedy, and Rachel. He's used it to remold my
heart for His glory. Thirdly, I have learned to be more
compassionate and kind toward others. One of the promises I made
to Rachel at her grave site was to carry the torch that she had
dropped, and to continue her chain reaction. I have been trying
to be kind toward other people, and though God's power and Rachel's
inspiration, I am succeeding. This is one of my struggles I deal
with. Having a bad temper and bad attitude toward people
sometimes. Slowly my heart has been changing, and I praise God for
that. And fourthly, I have come into a deeper walk with God
though this trip. I praise God for all these things.
Well, this will be my final entry
concerning the Littleton trip. I hope and pray that these
entries have brought some inspiration to your own life. I was
originally going to stop the journal entries once I got home, but I
decided I will continue to do journal entries based on Rachel. I
enjoy writing them. So I will continue to write on stuff about
Rachel. Thanks for reading these and my God bless you all! |
